Talon, Dad is trying really hard today. It's been a very rough week. School is going to be getting out for you pretty soon, and for all I know your mom and you is going to be taking off somewhere. I could probably write quite a bit but I just want to keep it simple today. I'm already exhausted and just trying to find something to do to keep my mind off of things, but I can't. I'm still in the circle of trying to figure out why Mom did what she did and how she did it. It still doesn't make sense. There's a lot of people that say we shouldn't tell you about these things but, what choice do I have? I know you've been told things about me that just simply aren't true or are under circumstances that you don't understand. I know you know right from wrong. I know you have to do things to try to stay happy yourself, but I have to as well. I can't be happy unless I know you know the truth. It's not fair to me or you living with lies.  One of the reasons mom got real mad was because...

I just wanted to share something so private I never expected to share it with anyone except him and his mother. This is one of the last times I was able to touch my son. This was in January 2019, after I had managed to get back to Hawaii after a lot of financial hardship being on the mainland here. I was there after finding out Diane had had an affair a year earlier, but we had talked about it and she reassured me that it meant nothing in the long run and was over. Regardless of how she presented it to me, I was in panic mode, I needed to be there, it had already been too long and I felt my world was slipping away and I needed to do what I could to try to save what was left of it.  I came for Christmas and stayed through the New Years. Her father wouldn't allow me near the house so friends of hers, Corey and Amber let us stay at their home. Her father and I never really got along because of difference of opinion when it came to family and overall human decency. I talk about this...

Talon, This is Daddy. There's so much I want to say and if you are even allowed to read or have been able to read any of the other things on my website, this one is only for you. I've given mom and made this website for years now, she says she has always read them and shown them to you but I don't know what is true anymore. I want to say first, I love you so much and miss you so much right now. You are old enough to know now about some of the things that have happened and hear them from me, not just Mom. Because Daddy has a big mouth and writes a lot of words, I'm going to break some of this down into multiple letters to give you time to take it all in. If I repeat myself I'm sorry, it's hard focusing on just one thing right now and there is so much that you need to know and I need you to hear.  Please take the time to think about it and don't be afraid to ask me, your school counselor, and even your mom about these things if you don't understand...